Dear You,
what you see above is - in my eyes - a little wonder.
This geranium - which a professional would call
pelargonium, I know that, but using the "common word" is my way of trying to convince you that I really try to give up being perfect :-) - well, this little "twig" of the geranium on my balcony broke off when I decided to give it more space, meaning: I took the plant out of its little pot and into a window box.
More earth to spread its little roots, more space to unfold its little leaves, more freedom.
In Germany we have a saying: "
Where wood is chopped, splinters must fall"
So here I had that "splinter" with two little tight white buds in my hand.
And thought: "
We'll see". (As you all know I am quite good in finding meaning and detecting symbols everywhere).
And put it into the turquoise-blue bird bath.
And then it happened - and, oh yes, in my eyes it took quite a long time, felt like two years - but suddenly it opened its little petals, unrolled them, seemed to say: "
Well, circumstances are not as I expected them to be - but hark! (I love to strew in a hark in my blog from time to time!) -
they are not bad. So: I decide to flower in my circumstances as they are now."
(At this moment I might have lost
The Last Reader, hearing him mumble:
What is that woman talking about?)
Well, here I sit, "
in the world of the ten-thousand things", and adjust to the truism that "
life is not all neat and tidy".
I have thought very hard about my blogs - about the way I will write them. For me it is easy to talk about the newest exhibition in the marvelous Barberini Museum in Potsdam, but that is not enough for me. Yet also I do not want to write my
Dear Diary into the air (or Cloud, or whatsoever,
Howling at the Moon, just
to sprinkle in a touch of modernity by a new pop-song) - no, I want a mixture of all Dear Life that surrounds me, filling me up to the brim sometimes, and show you what everyone sees, but filtered through my eyes.
Today promises to become the second really summerly day in Berlin - we had 27 degree yesterday, in May!
And yesterday evening I was sitting on my balcony, had lit a pale blue candle, a tiny glass of red wine in my hand, looking into the sky which was just preparing for the night: still pale blue at the horizon, and darker above - when a voice came from the flat above me: "
Britta?"
As I am a very, very northern girl, coming from Bremen, I love my privacy - meaning: for me the balcony, which has a roof (!), is like a chamber to me - absolutely private.
And you could only see a hand of mine, from above, not more.
So I stayed silent.
"
Britta? Are you alright?"
No way to hide. Yes, my dear neighbour, I appreciate that you are caring - I really do, and thank you for that! - I can assure you - and everyone:
"Yes - I am alright."
Toodle pip!