Small things usually put the proverbial "final straw" on the heap.
I possess (too) many sweaters, and yesterday, when I felt a bit moody, I remembered (!) my cozy lovely forget-me-not -blue one. (Honestly: to have to remember(!) a favourite(!) tells it all...)
That was my first irritation: am I still myself if I'm not able even to remember what I love?
The second irritation:
I could not find it. (And I am an orderly woman. OK - my apartment is unethically large - but normally I find what I am looking for).
But I didn't.
That made me think:
1) if I cannot find it in Berlin - Berlin, where I happily spend a part of my life
then it might be in
2) Amsterdam (it is near Amsterdam, but that doesn't matter here) - Amsterdam, where I happily spend a part of my life
or, if it isn't in Amsterdam,
then it might be in
3) Bavaria (as you know: I respect the wish for privacy of son and DiL and the triplets (though they do not care about privacy - they are half a year old now) - Bavaria - where I happily spend a part of my life now.
Seems I lost track.
Seems - though I love it in all three places! - I lost me (a bit).
The forget-me-not-blue sweater might be just a symbol that LIFE throws at me (Nay: it hides it from me! The cozy lovely thing! My soul-comforter!)
Here you see one (!) result of my deep thinking: blogland has me back.
The Beatles sing "I say hello - and you say good-bye" (thought that line always a bit irritating - and prefer the Stones).
And hope you say "Hello" too!
Hi Britta, I was very happy to see you yesterday and now today a post! The blue jumper will do the same and reappear, I am sure of that. I am glad all is well in Bavaria. X
ReplyDeleteI love that, Rachel, very much, thank you!
DeleteMakes ne think about the word "jumper" too - maybe that's what I do at the moment: jump around. :-)
H.I. also has disappearing clothing, except they should only be in one place. Welcome back Britta.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Tom! My Life is full of unexpected adventures - had you foretold me that years ago when we met: i would have laughed out loud...
DeleteH.I. wore beautiful black clothes when we met - which let her long full silver hair shine so beautiful!
Welcome back Britta.There's a superstition here that says if you can't find something you need to turn a glass on the table, give it a try.
ReplyDeleteWow - i love superstitions - would not take the cheaper fly ticket on coming Friday, 13th - honest: i go the next day. :-)
ReplyDeleteAs to the glass- standing and turning or horizontal?
Will inform you, Yael, if it worked!
HELLO! I wonder how many of history's greatest explorers were really in search of their favorite sweaters. So happy to see your post on my reader again.
ReplyDeleteHELLO, Geo -I honestly missed your blogs and your wisdom!
DeleteAnd your question about explorers and favourite sweaters gives me an idea for a story (maybe)...and it lets me see my 'misfortune' in a much more sparkling light, thank you!
Hello, you! Nice to hear your voice.
ReplyDeleteI think the sweater is in Bavaria. It is far more romantic sounding than Amsterdam or Germany. Best of luck.
Hello, Joanne - I love your tongue in cheek and I think I quite understand the underlying meaning of your advice :-)
DeleteDear Britta - it is so lovely to have you back in blogland once again.
ReplyDeleteJust a couple of days ago I was remembering something that used to be in my life and I wracked my brain but couldn't think what on earth had happened to it or where it was. I found it both upsetting and confusing, and now just two days later I can't even remember what it was I was fretting about - as your title says 'Chaos, Enlightenment - or just Life?'
Thank you, Rosemary!
DeleteAnd to hear from you (of all learned persons!) that I am not alone in my quest for -- what was it? --- the holy grail? - no, more profane ---let me think a minute -- ah, yes: things... - that puts up a big shield against my fear of loss.